Angie’s Journey…

Hi Buddies…

First thing I want to say is that you are all amazing people! Thank you so much to my wonderful buddies who have been after me to get my butt back here and who’ve been checking on me. I’ve been dealing with some really difficult things at home and just haven’t been really happy lately. However, that’s not who I am, so I guess it’s time to get up off my butt and take myself back. I don’t want to be a complaining person, but the issues are surrounding my relationship with my husband. I mean, he’s not awful or anything, but sometimes I feel like he’s trying to emotionally beat me down until I become whatever it is he thinks I should be. Like for example, he’s not a morning person. So every morning, before I even get out of bed, he begins bitching at me and generally doesn’t stop until he leaves the house (THANK GOD HE LEAVES THE HOUSE). Now I know that many people have more serious problems and that is part of the reason I am reluctant to even blog about it…but I just feel like this whole marriage thing sometimes kills my spirit. Other times I’m happy, don’t get me wrong, but I guess the bottom line is that, while occasionally he makes valid points, he NEVER considers my feelings while making those points. He always says that I need to be responsible for my own feelings–which I am–but I feel (and tell him) that when he married me, he took on partial responsibility for them. He only agrees with me when in the right frame of mind–but god forbid if I have the nerve to criticize him. Seriously, he jumps down my throat if I even have so much of an inkling of a complaint about him. Because after all, HE is perfect.

Anyway, I could go on and on but I won’t. I am sorry to make my first blog in awhile a complaining blog..it was not my intention. And I want to put a little disclaimer here: I love my husband and am doing everything in my power to try and make this work. I just think that I might need to drag his ass to counseling or something.

Now, on to the good stuff…we made it through the holidays with only a bit of drama, which is good considering we had five xmases in two days. And (drum roll please??) instead of gaining my usual ten pounds over the holidays, I have CONTINUED to LOSE!! WOOT! I have lost 40 pounds to date!

So that is always good. Yay. Anyway I will try to catch up on everyone’s blogs within the next couple of days. Thank you again to everyone for caring about me…you have no idea how much that means to me. I need the support so much and here I was cheating myself out of it. Thanks to you for reminding me…
Hugs,

Angie

Hi Buddies…
Well I’m sick again. Grr. I’m having the worst luck this past couple of weeks I swear, lol. I just get over having the stomach flu and BAM, head and chest cold coming up. I feel like my head’s in a fishbowl and once again no one at home seems to be willing to give me a break. I’m a little testy.

So anyway I’ve managed to stay OP. I gotta run now because the family apparently can’t do without me for even this long. (Can we say cranky?)

Have a great weekend all and hope your days have been more pleasant than mine.

Hugs,

Angie

Hey Buddies!
Well, I’ve spent the last couple of days doing all the things that were left undone (or done wrong, lol) while I was sick. It’s amazing, lol…I never had any idea how much I really do. Funny right…

Anyway, I’ve been quite good staying OP but am still struggling with exercising regularly, lol. I mean, I exercise, but I don’t have a set schedule and for some reason that makes me crazy. Am I being too hard on myself, lol?

Other than that, things are relatively quiet tonight. Busy with kids and their activities as usual, but happy and still working toward my goal of being hot, lol, I mean healthy.

My husband notices my progress every now and again…like last night when he wrapped his arms around me and noticed a difference (grin) and this morning when…well, I’ll keep it PG…

Anyway, love to you all and thanks for all of your amazing support!
Hugs,

Angie

Hi Buddies!

Well…I’m slowly but surely getting over this nasty flu. I’m feeling better today and clearly need to get moving again because DH seems to make a very poor homemaker, lol…he can’t seem to keep up. It’s funny because I think that he feels like I don’t do much, but this past couple of days, lol…I think he’s getting it.

Something cool happened the other day…my husband’s friend (who is also quite handsome, lol) came over to hang out and kept staring at me. So I was like, “What, John, do I have a boog?” (LOL!)…and he laughed and said, “No…there’s just something…are you doing something different??” And I was like, “What do you mean?” and then he tells me that I’m looking great and he can tell I’m losing weight!! WOO HOO! So that was a great validation, especially because no one else really has said anything (except people who know I”m doing this like my DH and close friends). And even then, it’s never been anything like that, lol. Now, I got really frustrated at Thanksgiving because no one in my family said a damn word about my shrinking physique, but I guess because I’ve got so much to lose they didn’t notice?? I don’t know. But instead of doing what I’d have done in the past and given up, I recogized something new. I’m not doing this for THEM, I’m doing it for me. I’m seeing a difference and I’m feeling better every day about it. Sooo, I just took note of it and moved on.

Anyway…other than that, today’s been somewhat quiet, after getting the DH and oldest DS out the door this morning, lol. I’m going to try and catch up on some  more blogs and I’ll see y’all later…

Love and Hugs,

Angie

Hey Buddies…

What a week I’ve had…

Well, first, DH got the stomach flu and of course thought he would die. Then Cameron (my oldest son) got it…followed shortly thereafter by Noah (my little one) and last night, here it came hitting me like a ton of bricks. Bleck. I’ve seen enough poop and puke for a lifetime this week, lol.

I’m still icky but am trying to think my way healthy…lol.

Also the recent storms left us without power for a couple of days and that sucked. It got down to fourty five degrees in our house! And there are still some people in our area without power! Unbelievable…you’d think after we were without power for a week over the summer that they’d have fixed this business. Yikes.

On to more positive things, my weigh in this morning. I’ve lost two more pounds…ooh, I need to update my ticker now that I think of it.

So I wanted to check in with you wonderful people and apologize for being MIA for a few days…sickness and power loss are to blame. But I love you all and truly appreciate that you’ve not dumped my a$$ yet, lol. Thanks so much for being here for me…

I’m off to start catching up on your blogs.

Hugs,
Angie