Angie’s Journey…

Hey y’all…

Well…things are beginning to look up. First, an update on my marriage, since you’ve been so supportive. Things got REALLY bad there for awhile…but I think we’re starting to reconnect. I’m beginning to remember why we got married in the first place. I think that somehow the every-dayness of it all caused us to become more like co-workers than lovers. And I’ve been trying hard to make time to spend with him, and we’ve had some really open and honest discussions about things which seem to be bringing us closer together. And while our sex life was always fairly active…it has improved on such a level recently in in that it could be considered love making as opposed to having a quickie (trying to keep this as PG rated as possible lol). Soooo that’s all good, or at least movin’ in the right direction.

Ok, now the weight loss news…(drum roll please). LOL. Ok, here we go. So when I started trying to lose weight, at 265 lbs (highest weight ever), I was wearing a SUPER tight size 22 jeans. Tight like, I couldn’t even button them without laying down. And then they were so uncomfortable that it hurt to wear them.

Well…I’ve been in 18s for awhile now, and recently noticed that I could (ready?) pull them down without unbottoning them!!! WOOT!! So…a friend had some 16s that she had, er, grown out of, and  brought them over for me to try..and well… THEY FIT!!!

Sooo…that’s my good news. LOL. I remain on plan, but need to get more routine exercise in, like always lol. However, I find that the more weight I lose, the better I feel, the more that I move. I WANT to move. It’s a good thing. I’m working very hard lately on it all…but I really need to get that routine thing down. I think my life would be easier. I dunno why it’s possible for me to keep my kids on such a tight schedule, but not possible for me to squeeze in some dang routines of my own…

Ack, that’s all for another day. LOL. Right now, I’m focusing on the positive: marriage on the mend, and ass getting smaller lol. Love you all so much and hope to be back very soon. Thanks for being there for me as always, and I hope to get back to being there for you as much as before very soon.

Hugs,

Anige

Hey hey y’all…

Well..I’m a terrible buddy. But here I am again, checking in. Apparently life is still kicking my ass. On the plus side, I have lost another four pounds this week, bringing my so far grand total to 45. Sadly I still have much, much more to go, but I’m feeling like I can do this. I mean 45 lbs is A LOT and to be honest, the most I think I’ve ever lost in my life in one consecutive run (because you know that over the years I’ve lost and gained millions lol).

And even though I ‘ve still got so much more to lose, I am not freaking. (at least about the weight). I am confident that I can and will succeed. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, except to say that doing this on a slow and relaxed (ie more healthy) pace has been the answer. I mean, sure it’s taken five or six months to lose 45 lbs..BUT if I had not started back then, I’d be 45 lbs heavier now. And WOW. If I look at it thatway, all that missed Halloween candy and xmas candy and cake and all that yumminess, just seems totally worth missing. I mean the fact is, those things are a momentay (and guilty, I might add) pleasure. And this is WOW so much better. Not to mention, my taste buds seem to be craving more fresh fruits and veggies, which is wonderful. Like somehow my body is being retrained.

I mean…I still have the occasional treat. But it’ s generally a small taste of something as opposed to the whole bag, box, carton, etc. LOL. For example, my son’s boy scout group sells popcorn. There is this one kind that is carmel corn covered in chocolate and OMFG it is some good stuff. I used to eat half the bag myself, usually in one sitting lol. But now, I tasted one or two pieces and gave the rest to my husband. LOL. But the thing is, I was just as satisfied with a couple pieces as I would’ve been with the whole bag. Probably moreso, in fact, because I actually tasted it this time. And it was lovely. But then I was done. Which, I must say, was even more lovely.

Anyway, thanks for listening lol. I have to go to bed now as it’s after one am here and I need to be up in four hours to get people out the door for school and work. Love you all and miss you. I’ll try to check in tomorrow and comment on your blogs.

Hugs,
Angie

Hey hey beautiful people! Well, I’ve got a new mini goal set now that I’ve met the last one (and exceeded it by one pound!). I’m going for onederland (y’all know what I’m talking about!). My new mini goal is 199. That is 25 pounds from where I am now and I know I can do it. Now I also want to put in writing that I’d like to meet this goal by my birthday, which is March 7. It may seem a little lofty to expect to lose 25 pounds in just under 8 weeks…but I think that I can do it. Well…I know I could if I’d just start exercising on a regular basis lol. I’ve got the food thing down now…it’s truly habit and the way I plan to live for the rest of my life–staying OP on a regular basis with an occasional indulgence. I don’t feel deprived and am no longer using food as a way to console myself (even though on rare occasion I am still tempted to do so).

I wanted to say thank you all for your concern about my marriage issues. I am still struggling with it, and feeling a bit depressed, but I feel myself coming back up to normal standards, slowly but surely. In  hindsight, I think the holidays may have exacerbated the situation a bit, but certainly they mostly just brought existing issues to the surface. Regardless of the complications, I am recognizing the true facts about the situation, one of which is that marriage is not always easy–of course I already knew that–but that in committing to a marriage with this man, I committed to dealing with the issues he brings. And like I said before, compared to some men, he’s a prince. But, thanks to Erika, I am no longer minimizing the issues in my own mind-I am recognizing them for what they are and acknowledging them at this point. Once I have completed this and have sorted them within my self, I will be better equipped to present them in a rational manner to DH–at which time a proper resolution should be able to be achieved. That said, I am currently employing my old favorite–fake it till ya make it–tactic to get by.

On a related note, my spirituality has suffered as a result of the insanity of late, so I am also focusing on renewing that. I feel scattered and unbalanced and let me tell you, it is SO not working for me lol.

So, thank you again to all of you for being here for me. I am still working toward getting back here daily, but until then, I will show my ugly mug as often as possible, lol. I love and value each of you. Thank you for being you, and for being here for me!
Hugs,

Angie